somes_auditus: 072 + Can you forgive me again? I don't know what I said, but I didn't mean to hurt you...

Akasuna no Sasori (

somes_auditus) wrote,
@ 2008-04-10 21:20:00

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072 + Can you forgive me again? I don't know what I said, but I didn't mean to hurt you...

*The transmission clicks on. And there's a long pause, before he finally speaks. His voice is strained, as though trying to fight emotions, pain, anger, exhaustion, all at once. Which he is.*

...I must speak with you...

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	PRIVATE // To Sasori // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 01:40 am UTC (link)
	We do.. (Reply to this)(Thread)

[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE

somes_auditus
2008-04-11 01:45 am UTC (link)

Suzaku, I... *a pause* I don't know what to do... or say, to what you told me. I've thought about it a lot. And I can't... I just don't know.

*a long pause, where he shifts around a lot*

It... I mean... You know how important you are to me... don't you? I thought... I thought I showed you, in every way I could, how much you meant to me. Didn't... Did I miss something? Did I do something wrong? Is this...

... *a longer pause, before he speaks, and his voice half-cracks* Did I break things... and they can't be fixed...?

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	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 01:53 am UTC (link)
	All you seem to talk about is that human. I realize I'm important, but you seem more intersted in your shiny new toy. Every time I go to comment you're talking about him, or to him and it makes me just...turn off the monitor. Because, from the way you talk, it's obvious you get all the affection you want. He is obviously far more affectionate than me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE

somes_auditus
2008-04-11 02:01 am UTC (link)

*a long pause, before he bursts out* That - That's not true! It's not that he's more affectionate than you, or that I like him better, or that all I want is him it's that - that ... he's here. With me. He's been in my life.

It's... I can love you differently, in the same amounts. I... You're my world, you know? My whole world. my earth, where I stand. And he's like my sky. And if I'm a bird, I fly in that sky, but I make my home on the earth. I always come back to the earth. I think... I have... roots and wings now. I just want to balance it... I want you two to get along. I want all of us to at least be able to be around each other...

It's not that you're not enough. You're more than enough. You're mine. My soul, outside my body. That house is ours, our place, our world. *a pause, and then a small, shamed mutter: 'so I shouldn't have brought him there...'* But then I come here and... this fits, too...

I don't know what to do.

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	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:06 am UTC (link)
	Admit that had I brought Deidara into our home and acted around him as you do to that human you would be no less than enraged. I have no reason to get along with him. He has not approached me, nor will I approach him. I do not care for him, but if you wish to spend your time with him, I will not stop you. ...Neither do I. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 02:09 am UTC (link)
	Because of what that man had done, what he had done to us! To my things! If it had been before all that, if - if - ... I... I would have been a little upset... You don't - he's a lot like us, I thought you would get along... (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:11 am UTC (link)
	He did nothing to us. You tried to throw us together with no warning when I was a woman. My hormones were so unbalanced, and only got worse when you mentioned getting rid of me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 02:16 am UTC (link)
	He blew up our house! I d - would you have listened? 'Hey, Suzaku, I want to bring this guy over so we can have sex, and then afterward, we can all sit around the fireplace and make smores. Sound good?' (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:19 am UTC (link)
	He was good for conversation.. Trying to talk about it is better than just doing it. It's my house too, after all. How would you feel, hypothetically if I had dragged Deidara back and screwed his brains out, then spent the next few days either fighting with you or telling you that I loved him as well? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 02:21 am UTC (link)
	...I would have killed him. But I had reason to hate him before that. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:22 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't matter. Despite that night he was someone I enjoyed talking to, now and then. And yet you expect me to accept him unconditionally. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE

somes_auditus
2008-04-11 02:28 am UTC (link)

Not unconditionally, just for his own self, and not for what he is to me.

*looong paaause*

...Suzaku, right now... he's not unwilling to accept you. He would be civilized to you if I asked him to. He's never shut you out. All he ever was was disappointed that I chose you over him Sunday before last. But he... I'm gearing toward... staying down here with him because I think... if I were to go back up, you would poison it. Our tension would poison it.

Edited at 2008-04-11 02:37 am UTC

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	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:56 am UTC (link)
	All on me then. Well if you want him so bad you're willing to stay with him because of my poison, you're welcome to him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 02:57 am UTC (link)
	I'm trying to make peace. I don't need this stress right now. I'm doing this because I love you! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 02:59 am UTC (link)
	Except that my anger, my wholly justified irritation at this situation is a poison to what you have with him. Fine. Apparently I am not allowed to feel upset, but instead learn to share you and get along with him, which will not happen. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 03:01 am UTC (link)
	...I can't believe... ... Please don't make me do this... (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 03:02 am UTC (link)
	Demons are not humans. This sort of thing is far more serious than you could realize. You are the one making the choice. You are staying with him. That is fine. I will remain here for a time before returning to the Lower Level. I will assume a new home and you will not need to see me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 03:04 am UTC (link)
	You're making me choose... or choosing for me... Oh, god... (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 03:05 am UTC (link)
	You chose already, by moving in with him. You're happier there. Perhaps humans belong with their own kind. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 03:06 am UTC (link)
	a long pause, before he speaks, his voice much different Come and take a walk, my dear~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 03:08 am UTC (link)
	And now, you've discarded your bracelet? Low. Human. You will be able to find me when you've put it back on and are willing to talk like someone who isn't trying to hide behind a curtain of insanity. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE

somes_auditus
2008-04-11 03:10 am UTC (link)

The baby cries, he cries for all that is lost, all that is his, his, his, his...

He knows, he knows. He knows where he belongs. He runs away from it. He is selfish. He is hollow. He is everything they desire and more.

The king is bare, yet he loses his trusted when he uncovers his soul... cover, cover, cover, cover...

The wolf guards him. The bird takes flight. Now he is stranded.

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	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 03:12 am UTC (link)
	Goodbye. As I said, when you've stopped hiding behind a lost bracelet's insanity you will be able to find me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 03:13 am UTC (link)
	Listen. HUSH! LISTEN! One last! a pause ...the baby... he would sacrifice everything to clear his conscious. He would. The baby... he's crying. It's raining. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE arrogant_prince 2008-04-11 03:14 am UTC (link)
	Neither will budge. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	[VP] PRIVATE // To Suzaku // UNHACKABLE somes_auditus 2008-04-11 03:14 am UTC (link)
	Is the chain broken? (Reply to this)(Parent)

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